I have 23 days left at my current job. I got the call yesterday that I didn’t get the job I interviewed for with the chilly lady. Well, ok, to be fair she did say I was one of the top candidates, but they picked someone else. I was kind of scared about that job, so it’s probably a good thing. But right now, I just want to know I have a job waiting when I leave here.
Adrian is so great and is trying so hard to help me not worry about it, but UGH! It’s so hard! Because
WE’RE GOING TO LOSE THE HOUSE
WE’RE GOING TO BE EATING DOG FOOD!
My brain won’t quit (JUST QUIT ALREADY)
We have been through this so many times and I’m just in disbelief that here we are again. We have made it through those tough times before so you would think it would be easier to trust that this is going to all work out as well. I just hate not being in control and not knowing what is going to happen.
God has ALWAYS provided for us. I know that. I know that. It’s so hard to just rest in that. I know He has something out there for me. My patience (or lack thereof) is being tested. But sometimes it is so hard to trust that He knows what He is doing and that He has this under control.
Adrian helps a lot. We tend to trade places as needed between which one of us is the level headed one and which one is the one freaking out. He has been supportive and reassuring and finding the good in it all. That’s what I’ve needed lately.
So I choose to be positive and to put positive energy into finding a new job. I applied for another one that looks like a good fit. I’m sending out positive vibes and praying for peace and patience. I’m going to focus on the NOW and (try to) not worry about the WHAT IFs.
This will be fine. And even if it’s not, it will still be fine.